Jakkal (jakkal) wrote,


You know, I hate to admit it, but it's true. It's true for me like it's true for a lot of other folk who post their creative work on the 'net. A lot of the inspiration, the encouragement comes from the 'audience'. (Viewers, Readers, whatever you want to call them). It's really nice to see the useless comments such as "Great page today" for comics or "This pic is awesome". The more people chatter about BT on the forums, the more I'm inspired to really work on it, make it cool.

The thing is though, I don't want these comments unless they're genuine. Unless I earn a "That's really cool," I don't want to see it. I guess that's why I like to see explanations more than random comments. I like to see what people think might happen. I like to see their reactions to what has happened. When they don't comment, I have no idea what they're thinking. In a way that bothers me.

It's kind of funny that a lot of people that read BT think that's the best I can do art wise. BT isn't my pennacle, it's my daily practice. It's really nothing more than a colored, inked sketch. I draw BT in 15-20 minutes. In some ways, I don't like this. After the fact, I think of all kinds of ways I could have made it look better. At the same time, I don't want to spend more than 15-20 minutes sketching out BT. I think BT would look badass if I updated once a week and put a lot of effort into the pages. But I enjoy a more fast-pace story. Kaerwyn irks me that it only updates twice a week, but I don't have time to dedicate anymore time to it.

But no matter what, the more comments I get, the more I /want/ to work on it. That's not a subtle hint, either. I mean it's not subtle at all, and I'm not asking people to drone their way over to a forum they've never posted on before just to make slackjawwed comments to keep me going. I'm just musing for a moment. This probably explains why I couldn't keep going with Crimson Fury. Comments were very few and far between for it.

In other news, I've started a journal for Lorelei. drifterlorelei specifically. It's main purpose is to post thoughts, as if Lorelei were writing them herself. So it's sort of an RP Journal. But I also want to use it as a suppliment to the comics. I don't have a lot of space to put in her thoughts all the time. The most I get is minor stuff and narration. Too much text on the pages and they get boring and hard to read.

For now, I've got the posts friendlocked. Since I starting out, the potential for posting a spoiler, or "going back" on what I said and changing something is very high. I need some practice with this before I post it publically.

I want to be very clear on this point, as I know many people that read this journal are here because of BT. I am only going to let certain people read this journal at first because I want comments. Tell me what I'm doing: good, bad, wrong, right, confusing, not enough info, etc etc. Naturally these will be /lore's thoughts/ so it doesn't make it right or wrong, just her opinions. I need to know if I'm helping the comics or hurting the comics by doing this. So if I don't know you, chances of you getting friended back are fairly slim. Though if you'd like to volunteer as a sort of reviewer/critiquer, I might consider the request.

There is always the chance that I might not feel inspired enough to continue with the journal as well. Which of course, goes back to the encouragement thing.

Right now I have a huge amount of inspiration, but absolutely no outlet for it. I can't put it towards SL, or comics, or anything of that nature. Those things are menial labor, not inspiration. I need to use this towards something new, fun, and exciting for me. I think I might go sit down somewhere quite and try to write a story for BT or Kaerwyn.

Oh well.

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