The thing is though, I don't want these comments unless they're genuine. Unless I earn a "That's really cool," I don't want to see it. I guess that's why I like to see explanations more than random comments. I like to see what people think might happen. I like to see their reactions to what has happened. When they don't comment, I have no idea what they're thinking. In a way that bothers me.
It's kind of funny that a lot of people that read BT think that's the best I can do art wise. BT isn't my pennacle, it's my daily practice. It's really nothing more than a colored, inked sketch. I draw BT in 15-20 minutes. In some ways, I don't like this. After the fact, I think of all kinds of ways I could have made it look better. At the same time, I don't want to spend more than 15-20 minutes sketching out BT. I think BT would look badass if I updated once a week and put a lot of effort into the pages. But I enjoy a more fast-pace story. Kaerwyn irks me that it only updates twice a week, but I don't have time to dedicate anymore time to it.
But no matter what, the more comments I get, the more I /want/ to work on it. That's not a subtle hint, either. I mean it's not subtle at all, and I'm not asking people to drone their way over to a forum they've never posted on before just to make slackjawwed comments to keep me going. I'm just musing for a moment. This probably explains why I couldn't keep going with Crimson Fury. Comments were very few and far between for it.
In other news, I've started a journal for Lorelei. drifterlorelei specifically. It's main purpose is to post thoughts, as if Lorelei were writing them herself. So it's sort of an RP Journal. But I also want to use it as a suppliment to the comics. I don't have a lot of space to put in her thoughts all the time. The most I get is minor stuff and narration. Too much text on the pages and they get boring and hard to read.
For now, I've got the posts friendlocked. Since I starting out, the potential for posting a spoiler, or "going back" on what I said and changing something is very high. I need some practice with this before I post it publically.
I want to be very clear on this point, as I know many people that read this journal are here because of BT. I am only going to let certain people read this journal at first because I want comments. Tell me what I'm doing: good, bad, wrong, right, confusing, not enough info, etc etc. Naturally these will be /lore's thoughts/ so it doesn't make it right or wrong, just her opinions. I need to know if I'm helping the comics or hurting the comics by doing this. So if I don't know you, chances of you getting friended back are fairly slim. Though if you'd like to volunteer as a sort of reviewer/critiquer, I might consider the request.
There is always the chance that I might not feel inspired enough to continue with the journal as well. Which of course, goes back to the encouragement thing.
Right now I have a huge amount of inspiration, but absolutely no outlet for it. I can't put it towards SL, or comics, or anything of that nature. Those things are menial labor, not inspiration. I need to use this towards something new, fun, and exciting for me. I think I might go sit down somewhere quite and try to write a story for BT or Kaerwyn.