Jakkal (jakkal) wrote,

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I'm not really sure...

Why I'm writing this. I feel the need to say something, but I don't know what, or why. I just know I should. This isn't about me, it's about others I know. A very good friend of mine's father passed away in his sleep this morning. I've tried to be there for my friend, but I.... really don't want to turn this into a 'me me me' post. Not about me. I don't know how to talk to him about it. He's taking it really well so far, but I'm not sure if it's just a brave front he's trying to put forth or what.

I have a hard time dealing with death, not because of what it is, but because of my views of it. I'm a very apathetic person, believe it or not. When someone dies, I really... don't care. I know that sounds coldblooded, and I do worry about the people they leave behind, like my friend. But I don't see death as an end at all, just a ... well literally a passing on. It's nothing good nor bad, it's just a natural end to mortal existance. I think this is especially bad because my friend spoke with his father just a few days ago and everything was fine. But today, he didn't wake up.

I feel like a horrible friend because I can't say or do what most people should to console their friends when something like this happens. I guess I'll just let things play by ear and see what happens.

At least it was a peaceful passing. That's about all I've got to say on it. Please don't give me your sympathies, I'm not the one in need of them. I just needed to get that off my chest.

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